Christ over Culture

A few months ago, in October and November, my friend and I went on this crazy social media fast. Two months without social media, and I was bored. However, instead of sitting in that boredom I asked her if we could challenge ourselves to be vulnerable with God and each other. 

Now, in case you didn’t know, being vulnerable with God is the furthest thing from boring! During this time we cried, laughed, learned new things about each other and ourselves, prayed A LOT, and even came close to not being friends anymore! All of this I can look back and laugh at now!

 I want to share with you all a few lessons we learned from journaling together! 

Every day we’d be intentional to see and hear what God was saying to us that day, at the end of the day we’d; write how we felt about our day, what God had to say, and then pray for each other.

From day 1 it was ROUGH! God is so honest sometimes it’s scary to me that He sees these nasty parts of us and still loves us so much so that He reveals it so He can clean us up inside! 

The most common topic in our journal was the need to be desired by men! Both of us are single women. Not only are we single but struggling with feelings of insecurity and loneliness. So naturally, fleshly really, those feelings lead to….. fantasies. 

Fantasies reveal what we idolize and God hates idolatry. So when we decided to sit in our feelings and feel rejected and overlooked by men and by God instead of casting these feelings down and taking them to God we sit in our sin. Putting our feelings above God’s truth. 

When I opened up to God this is what He said…

“Thus says the Lord: “What wrong did your fathers find in me that they went far from me, and went after worthlessness, and became worthless?”

‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭2‬:‭5‬ ‭ESV‬‬

“Why do you place so much trust in men finding you pretty and pure that you forsake finding purity in Me. Why do you place your trust in worthless things and make yourself worthless” 

Needless to say, I cried! 

See fantasizing not only reveals what we idolize but also where our trust is! My friend and I’s trust was in men desiring us. “Maybe when I get married then I’ll know I’m wanted” we said. 

If we don’t deal with our feelings of rejection, insecurity, and loneliness now how will a husband fix what we didn’t even allow God to fix? 

God doesn’t want our hearts to be trusting in worthless things that won’t ever bring us the peace we desire! Only God can bring us that peace! Yes, our desire is to be married but if we believe we’re worthless because we aren’t married and men aren’t pursuing us we’re slapping God in His face saying “Let men pursue me so I can believe what Your word says about me.”

Silly girls don’t we know how much we matter to Him? 

So this is my encouragement for you and for ME! If you’re in a place where you’re stuck fantasizing and feeling lonely and insecure, place your mind on Christ and not on yourself! God won’t forsake you! He knows your desires but that doesn’t give you the right to idolize them. Turn to God, and ask Him to place your trust back in Him. Don’t make yourself worthless chasing after worthless things!